When you want to cry but couldn’t

I just working on one of my assignment which is listening to lots of songs from different genre and then make a report about what I feel when I listen to each of those songs. One that I picked up is The Lion King – Circle of Life (Broadway Version). What surprise me was, when I got into the song, some tears fell from my eyes. And I didn’t feel like want to stop it (not that lot’s of tears fell, but still…). I guess the song really reminded me of the beauty of nature and why we should be thankful for it, the regret of what earth has become today, and what had I done to make it good or worse…

Here’s the video on YouTube

Then I also remember one time in the past when I couldn’t cry. Couple of years before I had this problem, sometimes I even had to search for something to make me cry. At first any sad books or movie would do, but then the only thing that work is a manga CANON by Chika Shiomi. I don’t know why this book, but my mind seems to respond more to this one; and even in the end I had to read with concentrate and told myself to cry before it succeed.

This, I have to say can be seen as a torture to for me. Because there’s  a time when I just needed to cry and I couldn’t. So now after I doesn’t have this problem anymore (it was kind of reversed actually, now I kind of easy to cry. If I watch, or read, or hear something touchful, I often have an urge to cry), I have different point of view with some people who think/see tears as a sign of weakness. Now I always glad when I still can cry, I think it’s a gift that makes me feel normal and human. And I think someone who cry sometimes braver and stronger than someone who’s not. crying means we are brave enough to not only feel but also show the emotion. Stronger because through showing the emotion we can endure more. We doesn’t have to put all inside and thus we can store more without have to be overwhelmed…

That’s what I think. But I would like to know what all of you think about it. Do you feel the same with me? Or just the opposite?

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[Photo] Dreamy Look Photos

Last week I went to Pangandaran for 4 days with my friends and one soon-to-be-married-couple. I was asked to help my friend taking pre-wedding photos and even though I was not paid, I though it would be a good opportunity to get some good pictures for my portfolio (newbie’s way of thinking… hahaha). *Note: The entirely time there, I used my new 50mm f/ 1.8 fixed lens :))

Yesterday when I sorting the pictures & browsing the internet, one of my facebook friend post a link that showed some dreamy-look photos (http://www.petapixel.com/2012/02/06/dreamlike-photographs-of-insects-found-in-a-garden/). Looking at those, I though this might work well with some pictures I took at Pangandaran, and so I tried to apply it at one of them. Here is the result…

 

What do you think? I’m not sure I was using the right method to make this kind of editing (doubled the layer, make the color over & blur, change it into overlay, then come some leveling) since I haven’t get the right tutorial yet, so if any of you know the right step, please leave comments below :)).

*Hm… I notice something from my new lens when I did this pre-wedding photography. It does have nice colors and small focus, leaving the rest of the picture in blur. But sometimes it gave not-that-nice bokeh, it’s too rough for my taste and in several occasions, ruin (or almost) the images. What a pity… -> price never lie huh?